compromise

i never met a person who always had to be right. in any situation no matter the context or the conversation, their point had to be the right one; they had to always win the fight. its like they always have to have an answer for everything and a reason for everything. you can never be right, your opinion or your point can never be valid enough; its their way or no way. and what sucks even more is that once they feel as though their point is the RIGHT point, they continue to go in and to poke at the situation even more until you feel a half centimeter tall. until you dont even wanna say anything anymore. until you wanna just crawl into your bubble and stay there. its just unbelieveable because things like this happen everyday. but when its between two people who are dating, who are suppose to be a team, what does that say? how is that suppose to make the significant other feel? im afraid to say anything. every time i wanna speak my mind i second guess myself and question if i really wanna get involved. im never right. my point can never be better. she just cant ever step out of her bigass head to see where im coming from. its never that way. and im tired of it. im tired of keeping things in, or when i do speak on it to have myself put down to the point i wanna crawl under a rock and disppear. i want to disappear right now. im rebuilding my bubble, and im going to get back into it and im going to stay there. for minutes, for hours until i rebuild myself. couples are suppose to defend each other, not fight each other. your suppose to solve problems like adults and if something cant be agreed on, simply agree to disagree and move on from it. i dont understand why it always has to result to this. after 10months i keep hoping for change. that maybe shell hear the way my voice cracks or how quiet i get after the way she talks to me and that shell apologize and mean it and that it would change. but it doesnt, it hasnt. and i get to the point where i speak less and less of it. but i cant always keep everything inside. it should be like that you know. i should be able to express how i feel when i feel it and when i want to. and she should listen and try her hardest to understand me, and even if its the dumbest thing ever, still be loving enough to see where im coming from. then we should actively try to reach a point where we both get what we want. isnt compromise suppose to be a key point to a long and healthy relationship? smh i just....dont know....